I have been living by myself for a long long long time now.... Its so wrong to say that... I do have people who care for me but what is that makes my life the way it is now, I'm asking my self. I really don't have one answer for that.... I have a complex answer where in one answer is interlaced with another.
How can I be more specific.... I've been so jealous of people who really can recite each and every details of their life. Unfortunately, I'm not one of them. I can't remember a face, a conversation or an emotion. I live my life by just passing with the wind. I sometimes go AAArrrrhhhhh..... Coz i want to be so mad but I can't remember what made me mad in the first place. It's exhausting...
I can't remember My school days, My college days, My daddy, My son, My happy time or my sad times. I live like water. I want to remember so much, but I'm not cut out for that. Why I wonder....
I understand that we all survive by remembering. But there are people like me who survive by forgetting. I seem to forget people, conversations, colours, smiles, harsh words, tears, love everything. May be this is how I'm meant to survive...
2 comments:
Even though your blog is sad...its good to know that you have a moment to write...Keep it coming....I used to check your blog everyday Pri :)
Prem you are the best sis one can ever ask for.... I will write more frequently
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