Struggling for Perfection!!!

Millions of women all over the world, including me, are always unhappy most of the time about the way we look. No matter how pretty a girl is, I can bet a 100 quid, that she is insecure about something regarding her appearance. It might be her skin, her teeth, her nose, her smile, her hip or her butt... But mostly its the problem with the weight which causes all the women go bonkers!!!

There is this age old saying, " Beauty is just skin deep"... Isn't it? Then why is weight loss seems to be the biggest buzz word around Beauty care industry ... So many websites, products, workouts, package deals, get slim quick scams...

But since, I am here in Seychelles, MY physical exertion has really gone next to nothing... I do long for a hip that is a cross between Simran and Shakira with a butt like Jennifer lopez and a skin as smooth and flawless as Queen latifah... As if... But I am addicted to sugar so badly... I cant even eat a paper with sugar written on it. And believe me, Thanks to all the Cadburys and Mars and Snickers with Cheese crackers, My backside is getting as big as Brazil and my skin is now in such a mess... I thought as a big girl now, I should take control of my eating habits. I wish my weight is just half of what it is right now...

So I kept a two weeks time limit and wanted to watch out how MY Weight was doing in this time. I hate to wake up early... I am an ardent member of that group in Orkut, if you don't trust me. SO for the past 2 weeks, I have been pushing myself to wake up at 5.30 in the morning and do walking. Climbing up and down the mountains half asleep is not my cuppa tea.... But I really did it. And don't forget about all the time i was just drooling over the chocolate sections in the mall, and all the time i had to sacrifice the juicy curry and stick to stupid sandwiches and the painful crunches and all the times i was sweating like a pig over the aerobics.

After two weeks of painful weeks, I have lost half a kilo... Thanks god, I am saved. LOL... I am going to be skinny in another 3 years time... Well who am I kidding, I am never going to be thin, I am big boned... OR should I am say like Obelix " I am well covered "... Anyways tasting the first bite of chocolate after two weeks was a moment of epiphany. I was literally crying with tears of Ecstasy.... LOL

So there went my plans of becoming a super thin femme fatale down the drain. But I have started eating healthy and doing exercises, Owing to my wonderful GENE POOL... Hypertension, Diabetes, Cardiovascular diseases, Neurovascular diseases, Cancer and Obesity, you name it, I have it in my family... SO Just want to stay healthy for a few more years. What can I say, " I JUST CAN'T AFFORD TO GET SICK? ". You think i am going nuts now, Well that is what we call as Sugar cravings... Time for some more Chocolates. NAH..... I will stick to some Green tea this time. Green tea is supposed to take care of the wobbly bits and pieces stacked with cellulite, because of the antioxidant property, I am told!

SO I am still in the process.... IF I lose 10 kgs of weight, I swear i will put a big picture of myself saying BEFORE and AFTER and probably write a book saying, " Fighting through the hard times" and make a tearful speech even in the TV, saying How I Overcame my weights? Like all the ones we see. Who knows I might be a celebrity one day...